this is the time

yawn!

it is the time of after midsem break, when you feel that you need more holidays but instead are greeted in uni with so much more work, most delayed from before break, and new works are catching up...all piling up high...while you frantically try to get back the study momentum, yet feel so laggy... sigh.

at times like this i should be doing my lab report due tomoro and preparing a good presentation worth 20% for thursday. yet i cant help but hop in here for a word.

it is a tiring time. but when more to feel the love of God, even in, or especially in, times of crisis? to know that in every circumstance, He still wants to sit with me and talk to me, and that i can pour out my worries to Him and trust Him in all that i need to do?

of course, having said all that beautiful things, i admit, and confess i am not perfect, far from it. i still stress, i still worry, but i'm so glad He's so patient with me. and that He can use any situation, though i may view it negatively, though by the world's standards are bad things, to bring a different kind of blessing in my life. because He knows best. He knows my deepest heart's desire. it is beyond what the world would comprehend. neither would i, till He shows me.

it is also at times like this, friends are precious, sisters are marvellous wonders, who support and encourage me in times of need. oh, what a blessing! to be able to encourage one another in the Lord, for we all are weak humans, but through our weaknesses we find strength in our Heavenly Father and through the family of Christ He put us with. it is then i am humbled by my own ability, and find that i need Him so much, and also the sisters He sent in my life.

He's my perfect Father, the constant listener, the ever faithful One. and though many times i've let Him down, i've been disobedient...He opens His arms and welcomes me back, if only i would. and i need His mercy so much, and will continue to need it. but i know i can count on it, for His love is everlasting.

may i not take it for granted!