the best giveaway!

i am depressed! or rather, was. about my final year project! what seemed like a simple experiment made me all down and pressed and icky all inside. i can almost say i have never disliked (very close to loathing, despising, perhaps there already) anything as much. i find it so dificult, i find it so annoying....everything about it! i dont like the waiting, the no-result moments, the repetition, the lab work! i think going into lab for it depresses me, it sucked the life out of me, i could walk back from biotech3 crying. i could, but have never, mind you.

so as i was walking back, i talked to God. i told Him if He has brought me to it, He'd bring me through it. i won't scrape through this project almost dead, i'd emerge victorous because of Him. and the next morning i continue calling out to Him for help. as i prayed i realise i've got to make this His project. not mine, but His. and because it is His, i have released this burden to Him. i won't have to worry because He takes it away, He will see this project through because it is His. i am His servant to do the project, and because it is His i can find more passion, more determination and more direction. the project has more meaning, it found its meaning in Him!

God is soooo amazing! and so many times i forget the littlest stuff, of letting God into my life in every situation, like now. yet when i cry out to Him, He's patient enough to remind me. and graciously takes my worries away. no condemnation. wow.

of course, right now i'm still stuck at the beginning....results did not miraculously drop beautifully on my lap...yet. though He's perfectly able to perform miracles, i trust that He may have other plans. i will take on this road and trust in Him. i admit i don't pray once and be merry everyday. daily, more than once a day, i need Him to comfort me and tell Him my fears and sighs and whimpers and whines. but He's always there. He's the love that never lets me go. =)

and guess what? He heard my prayers and i have nice seniors to help me. i'm so glad. =D yup...this road is gonna teach me bout faith...lots. oh, and i prayed at the start for single colonies, for my 3 strains of lactococcus lactis, and they nicely came in single colonies! wow. this project requires me to continuously pray and believe. even in the things i can't see. but this is gonna be another chapter.=p